manicperlerbeads

A broken doll teetering on the ledge
Misses the landing and falls of the edge
A fast decent compared to the slow rise
Seconds to realize a crushing surprise
The ground rushes to meet her
Unyielding on her sudden detour
A shuddering silence as she lays shattered
Her porcelain heart, in pieces is scattered
So far away the ledge where she fell from
She can see the edge wondering how come
The dance was long but now it's gone
Is it time to pick up the pieces and move on
Can a broken doll begin again
Or will another journey simply be in vain

What is fate
but an excuse to wait
to waste you life
balanced on a sharpened knife

you teeter
you totter
and in the end you fall
no one is there to answer your call

you screamed
you hollered
there's no one to follow
a devastating blow

you cried
and you pleaded
it's not a fairy tale
from the start it was doomed to fail

Following the tracks in the sky
I feel you observing too
Wondering if I'm up so late
Looking at the twinkling view

When souls become one
Through love or through hate
You can't break the ties
Not a set distance to break

I feel your eyes
So sad, full of regret
As if you wonder too
What if we've never met

There would be less tears
No maddening end
Am I the only one
Who would do it again

If just for one kiss
Maybe a sad smile
If truly a smile it was
I could finish this last mile

But I feel your lips on my neck
Feel your arms around my waist
I feel my knife in your back
It was done in such haste

I do not mourn the passing
Of love unrequited
But the hand the once held yours
With no one else it quite fitted

Most negative feelings about others are negative feelings about yourself. Jealous that the girl/boy you like is talking to someone else = you feeling that you're not enough for her/him and thinking that s/he's found what s/he needs in someone else. Human kind is a genetically selfish race. On occasion you will find someone that is selfless. When you come across these people you look in at yourself and find that selfishness. You'll more likely than not be selfless for a short while but revert without truly learning anything. Take it upon yourselves everyday to find a reason to be selfless. Whether it's give a little change to a homeless person or pulling in some extra quarters at someone else's parking meter.


Forgive, but never forget, for you learn from yours and others mistakes. Always remember that scars are not just a reminder of pain, but a symbol of knowledge earned.



I posted this journal a long time ago but I would like to revisit it and remind people that everyone goes through problems, and everyone wants the world to be a better place. The thing is, is that it will never be a better place until everyone starts pitching in with random acts of kindness in their everyday lives. No it won't stop the wars. No it won't stop starvation. But the person you just complimented, even though they're miserable that day, now has a smile on his/her face. You may even make a new friend.

   So I've moved to Alaska from Nevada. From one extreme to another. I'm extremely nervous but I'm really happy I took the risk. Hopefully I'll get a camera soon so I can take beautiful people for my beautiful friends on here.